I have all of the feelings now.  I'm sober. Sad, tired, happy, ecstatic, terrified, sexy, ugly, bored...

IT FEELS GOOD.

IT FEELS BAD.  

IT FEELS REAL.

 

Sober up, Buttercup.

I'm new to sobriety.  I drank hard for about 15 years.  That is my entire adult life.  From the minute I tasted alcohol, I knew it was my true love.  We were going to be together forever.  As it turns out, alcohol was an asshole and made me an even bigger asshole. Wine and I were going to go to our grave in a ball of flames if I did not quit-probably taking a few people with us.  This is NOT my alcohol induced stories even though people like to laugh about them.  I will not be telling you about the time I flooded 3 rooms because I was passed out in the bathtub on Ambien and red wine.  I am not going to elaborate on the time I drove to the wrong house and Goldilocks-ed it into the wrong bed for an afternoon 8 hour nap after a few bottles of midday Champagne and Xanax soon after losing my shirt somewhere and purchasing a lemonade obviously from a child's lemonade stand.  Not ever will I glorify the many many times I walked around my car because I was so blacked out that I did not remember driving home praying that there were not dents or blood on the bumper.  I gave up alcohol on June 8th of 2016.  I am not going to ever drink again.  This is my story of hope and recovery-NOT of how f-ed up I was.  I hope with my blog, people find a little hope or a little laugh with this thing we call LIFE.   It's good.  It's bad.  It's real.