4 Months Sober. Hurrah.

Today I woke up and realized it had been a full month that I had not thought about counting the days.  That is a milestone for me.  Even though I still take my sobriety day by day,  I was counting the minutes for a long long time.  Sometimes I recounted to make sure I was counting correctly for the first 90 days.  

So, here are my feelings today.

1. My guts are probably looking great.

I am serious.  That was my first thought.  I thought about my health.  I thought about how my liver is up and running.   It is probably not shiny and brand new like I imagine.  But, I am on my way. I know that my sobriety is more about health now than it was avoiding the inevitable spiral of alcoholism.  

2.  How did I start living and stop counting?

I really wonder what has happened in the past month that took my focus off of counting the minutes.  I think I took my mind off of it.  I signed a new contract at work and was excited about a slight pay raise.  I planned a trip to Paris.  I started new hobbies like trading, investing, and running.  

3.  Now I am thinking...if I can do this, I can do anything!

I am not getting overconfident.  But, I am giving myself credit for doing something that seemed impossible to me 4 months ago.  I actually said that it was impossible out loud to everyone.  Many times I looked at myself in the mirror and said it.  So, I am using this new confidence to set another goal I think is out of reach.  I am using my sobriety to inspire me to go outside of my comfort zone.  I am going to be a pro-footballer.  Just kidding.  I am going to have to think on it.  Sorry, Cutler, I know you got excited.  Da Bears need me.

What's next, world?  Bring it on.  I am ready. 


That is my in philly running the Rocky stairs.  

That is my in philly running the Rocky stairs.  

Sober Style, 4th MonthAPRIL