4 Months Sober. Hurrah.
Today I woke up and realized it had been a full month that I had not thought about counting the days. That is a milestone for me. Even though I still take my sobriety day by day, I was counting the minutes for a long long time. Sometimes I recounted to make sure I was counting correctly for the first 90 days.
So, here are my feelings today.
1. My guts are probably looking great.
I am serious. That was my first thought. I thought about my health. I thought about how my liver is up and running. It is probably not shiny and brand new like I imagine. But, I am on my way. I know that my sobriety is more about health now than it was avoiding the inevitable spiral of alcoholism.
2. How did I start living and stop counting?
I really wonder what has happened in the past month that took my focus off of counting the minutes. I think I took my mind off of it. I signed a new contract at work and was excited about a slight pay raise. I planned a trip to Paris. I started new hobbies like trading, investing, and running.
3. Now I am thinking...if I can do this, I can do anything!
I am not getting overconfident. But, I am giving myself credit for doing something that seemed impossible to me 4 months ago. I actually said that it was impossible out loud to everyone. Many times I looked at myself in the mirror and said it. So, I am using this new confidence to set another goal I think is out of reach. I am using my sobriety to inspire me to go outside of my comfort zone. I am going to be a pro-footballer. Just kidding. I am going to have to think on it. Sorry, Cutler, I know you got excited. Da Bears need me.
What's next, world? Bring it on. I am ready.